People

Friday, January 18, 2008

wow, it's amazing how many people get on my nerves, especially before i get to know them, and then it's also amazing how when i get to know them, it's easier to except those things that got on my nerves before. patience is a virtue...truly learning that in this lifetime. love unconditionally. that's what he says he's trying to learn in this lifetime. i think i'll adopt this goal.

i have killed many things in my life...ive murdered more in the last week though than in my life previous, my new apartment has roaches pretty bad. fuck! you don't know these things until youve already signed and 12 month lease and paid a nonrefundable deposit and first months rent. fuck! fuck! fuck! but i refuse to live in peace with them because of being socialized to think these little creatures are so disgusting, so they must die at my hand and whatever kind of powder it is that the bugman came and put along the baseboards and corners of the apartment.

i may reincarnate as a roach, my life will be snuffed out by a thumb and index finger lined will paper towel, but because i will love and tolerate unconditionally, the one responsible for finalizing my short existence will be forgiven as i lay twitching in a wadded up paper towel amongst empty soup cans, tattered tape and other little twitching body-filled, crumpled paper towels at the bottom of the kitchen trash can.